Body dysmorphic disorder The Butterfly Girl

First Sentence

Standing behind the curtain i feel sick, with anxiety. My palms are sweaating and the sound of my rapidly beating heart is echoing loadly in my my ears,

Description

I was diagnosed with BDD in 1998 a time where I hated myself so much that I could barely leave my bedroom, I wished my life to be over and felt that I had no place within this world, however once I was diagnosed by an American Psychologist I became determined to regain control over my life! It took a long time for me to come to terms with the fact that the life I had led was in fact controlled by this illness. The BDD had been controlling me... the voice in my head which made me feel as though I was trapped inside a body which was holding me back from doing all the things I wanted to do, such as the simplest things like taking a walk on a sunny day or joining my family at the dinner table. I was isolated in my dark bedroom and my life had become a living hell. Perhaps the most difficult problem for me was even once I was diagnosed there was very little help available in the UK.

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